Monday, November 30, 2020

Collector of quotes

 Even though I haven't been posting, I still have been quietly screen-shot-saving quotes I find along the way.   I'd be surprised if I ever tire of the "YES!" feeling when another human to whom you never will know is able to so precisely articulate your experience.    A reminder that the human experience, though unique, is also quite shared.  

"I hope you find happiness one day.  Not the kind you share in a status update, but the enduring kind.  The quiet happiness that you've never really felt before and yet it feels as if it's always been inside of you, waiting to be found.  Like a house that's say empty for years, waiting for you to turn the lights on.  Waiting to be a home."   JM Storm.    





Sunday, November 29, 2020

Hello from Newburyport

 A break on these pages usually implies a lot happening!  And so, here I am with the latest update: a move!  After 3.5 years of being an apartment-renting Cambridge dweller, I have returned to home-ownership and a bit more of a nest.   I purchased a beautiful home a few months ago and am settling in and unwinding into a season of classic New England charm and "town" life - I say town, because having lived in a suburb and more of a city, Newburyport is neither - it's walkable and alive and yet, neighborly and quiet.   A nice place to be.  

As significant changes generally invoke a reflection for me, I have been thinking about this move.  The move from Andover to Cambridge was so important to me and so beautifully necessary.  I needed to decompress.  I needed to not be challenged by suburban norms and home making when I really had no stamina for either.  I needed a place where I felt the status quo was a bit less defined and people a bit more transitory and global.  I found all of that.  I found a piece of myself - I found confidence, I found a new rhythm for Joe and I as a unit of two, I found friends I hope to always have and I found that the "grass isn't always greener" and extremes of political inclination can be exhausting.  It was an exercise in progress of self and when I felt ready, I was once again able to close a chapter.   Life, I'm realizing for me, may be a book of several short chapters rather than one long one.   There is no right way.  

J loves the house and he has a new adjective, "adaptable".   He learned about it in the context of the animal kingdom but I told him that he, too, is adaptable.  My little buddy - he goes with the flow and seems to enjoy each chapter as it comes.  He loves all the space in the new place and calls his 3rd floor "his private island".