But something else is happening recently. Between the pregnancy and my husband's recovery from surgery, I have started to look forward to this quiet little space where I spend my weekdays. I like the routine of it. I like knowing what to expect, and knowing that I am valued and good at it. I like the pace --- where once I found it tedious and boring, these days I'm feeling gratitude for the time in the morning where I can make my coffee, read a few of my favorite blogs, gather some thoughts here on this space, and start my workday. I used to daydream of how I could find a job that would give me flexibility to enjoy more of the summer --- but you know what, the summer is hot. And after a sticky humid weekend, my cool office seemed like just the right place to be.
So - what am I trying to say here? Just a note to my younger self, I suppose. I spent countless hours worrying whether the career path I chose would allow me the family balance that I know I need. And just recently, as my belly grows and life becomes increasingly busy, I think that I did make the right choice. I like the predictability and structure of what I do. I like being part of a talented team. I like coming to work and being productive.
And that's it. For now, I'm content. And that feels really good. For now, my head isn't going in a million directions wondering how I got here and whether it was right or wrong. For now, I'm just enjoying this unique time in my life and soaking it in - a sincere and true gratitude for where I'm at and nothing more.
