As a new mother there is obviously some adjustment necessary. As a new full time working mom, there's even more. For me, my first few weeks back to work were smooth. There was a certain adrenaline keeping things pumping along... As I start on month 3 of being back to work, that has worn off and the non-stop "treadmill" feel has replaced it. Only it's as though someone keeps turning up the pace on the treadmill and my husband and I are gripping the handle bars trying to hang on.
But I had a small epiphany yesterday. Perhaps it was the beautiful spring weather or just a moment of clarity --- we have a new normal. That includes a wonderful, healthy, happy giggly boy. I must adjust our expectations to adhere to that miraculous change. Maybe a nicely cooked dinner every night is just no longer realistic. Maybe 3 days at the gym instead of 5 is good enough. Maybe I have to ask for help more than I ever have before....it's all good. Waiting for things to "quiet down" or for a weekend to be free of plans, commitments, errands, chores is.... unrealistic. And I refuse to wait my life away. Time moves on with or without our consent.
Instead, I will embrace this wonderful new normal with my beautiful boy... Fit things in when I can, accept what I just can't get to, release a need for perfection and find happiness in it all. It's a great life filled to the brim with blessings. Happy Friday, friends.